Still Waters

Sometimes falling feels like running
Officer, no, I don’t know how fast I was going
Faster, Faster, Fast enough
But I have straws catching me at the bottom

You let me go and I roll off the table
I’m too big for the slide, too short for the trees
Too skinny to drift like floating leaves
If I hold my breath would the water float me?

And I am so alone
I’m just teaching myself how not to be lonely
I don’t know where to go
I hold my hand and I pull me

I got held fast and broken open
The blood spilled down over my knees
Rorschach hollering so loudly
But still waters were all I could see

I pulled myself out of the socket
Learned to walk a second time
The lights and houses in the distance
The only lights and houses I can ever call mine

And I am so alone
I’m just teaching myself not to be lonely
I don’t know where to go
I’ll hold my hand and I’ll pull me

The clouds opened up and spilled fluorescence
Light bulbs to the pavement below
Even those thoughts, such good intentions
Shatter before they can grow

I caught mine but it broke open
Two eggshell halves, two moons above land
Simnia smooth and never jagged
Still waters gathering in my hands

And I am so alone
I’m just teaching myself how not to be lonely
I don’t know where to go
I hold my hand and I pull me